Wednesday, July 30, 2014

More CHANGE

A girl can only handle so much!

A close friend moved away about a month ago.
Like across the country moved!
I helped pack her up and see her off. There were tears trying not to be shed, but that couldn't be held back. We will virtually watch each others kids grow up. While that is way better than nothing, it's just not the same!

I'm stepping down from my position in our MOPS group. I'm a HOT MESS and need to take a step back for a season...I think!?  Mixed emotions about this one, but I feel it is what I need to do. I will most definitely be attending though!!

My oldest is going back to college. I'm dying a little inside, but I know this is also a GREAT thing! It's been nice having him home...getting to chat randomly with him...smell his smell...laugh at his jokes...have heart talks...pray with him...see his grin. He's one of my best friends now...in a Mother - Son kind of way. He will be greatly missed!

We are being forced into Obama Care...at first look this is no big deal...it's an ins change right!?  Well yes, but it's so much more than that. Aside from the "paying more $$ for worse insurance" issue, there is a whole notha side to this....my kids and us are losing our doctors...the ones that delivered them and have been taking care of them/us for YEARS.  Their Pediatrician is the only doctor they know...he's like family!  He was there from the first newborn hospital visit till now. He knows my family and all our little quirks AND is amazing with Justus...for all who know Justus you know this is pretty awesome. This is a MAJOR change for us...that we did not chose, but was forced upon us. I feel VIOLATED like someone has robbed us. Being forced into something never feels good!

Along that same topic...they are tearing down the hospital that BOTH my two littles were born in. The place where they took their first breathes is being completely demolished. I will never be able to take them to "the place where you were born" when they grow up. This makes me very sad. :(  Some friends of mine took some pictures of the hospital before it's destroyed:


We *just* found out that our dearest friends...my hubby's best friend since Jr. High!...are moving out of state. We get 3 weeks notice on this one. We are not shocked by this, but it still hits home hard.  They are like a part of our family. Our kids are friends. Justus was holding back tears when we told him. :(  Once again with the virtual thing...I know there is Facebook people, but it just isn't the same!!

Lastly - for now - Two weeks from now Justus starts Kindergarten. This is wonderful and scary. With this come a new chapter for us...the school years. I will also be volunteering at his school, so yet another new change on top of just 'Justus going to Kinder.'
I'm feeling heavy...but in that I also know that I AM BLESSED and God has a plan and purpose in all this change...I just wish He would clue me in...cause a girl can only handle so much!!!

PS. There are also WONDERFUL things happening...like the hubby and I running away to the Grand Canyon and visiting my Brother and SIL...we are all HEALTHY...while our son and friends are moving away, they are all healthy and safe!  I'm trying to keep my head above water, but it just seems like every time I get a breath a big wave comes over me and I find myself gurgling and gasping for air. :/